Asphyxia

Breathing
against my will
hoping
for another tomorrow
which might be different
it could be still, couldn't it
couldn't it be silent?

I love the way I make my capital J's
because it's how I start your name

and I want nothing more
than to make the life I dream of
and to have you dream of it with me.

For my Art Nouveau self to mesh with your modernism

for open spaces and French revivalism
to blend in beautiful ways.

For Brooklyn and the suburbs
to begin to matter
for the collective and objectivism

For Nero Wolfe
and prestige

for everything that has ever mattered.

beauty and the obscene.