Edie Warhol

One night
just after we first got together
I almost joined a cult

Walking through Chelsea
after Krispy Kremes and Dominoes
we met a girl from a commune in Virginia

If you hadn't been with me
I would have left with her

Even if I had to fuck everyone there
Even if I hadn't wanted to
Just to belong

Even then I knew
My degree wasn't the way for me

and I haven't chosen another road.

I never picked a direction.

I wish I was charismatic enough to found a movement
so I'd never have to do a thing
and still claim all the credit.

I'd have run away with Jim Jones or Charles Manson
played patsy to the Zodiac
all to know the world kept changing
to claim my place in it.

Freshman Year
I should have taken the Grayhound I dreamed of
some where, any where
South

though I can't imagine ever crossing the Mason Dixon on purpose

I don't know what my life might have been
but I sure know what it isn't.