composure

I want to fight.
I want to make something worth your time.
and I thought I could make the difference.
and I thought I could be the obedient one.
I thought I could do what you told me.
           If only you told me the truth at heart
           if only you said it didn't matter
           if only you warned me that
                  it wouldn't always be the same
         

I want to punch you in the face
                I want to be the one who is worth it
I want to make the difference
                 I want to be the change which you can't take back.

I want to be the one that matters
the one you're afraid to tell your mom about

I want to make your cycle shatter
and make it worth all you offered

I will take all you are and ask for more

I will boil my rights for one physical copy
for proof alone
I will beg you

and we each are left with nothing
and we each will claim it is enough